though there are many things i wanna say, many thoughts that i wanna pen down, not all can be put into words. this was probably the one time that my heart was so stirred up, wanting to pour out every single ounce of me and from me.
though i feel a certain limit now as compared to the last arise & build where i had a job, i hope and pray that God can use this little i have to do something great. And though it was last year, and some of you see it as normal, I still wanna thank god and emphasize on his provision, his goodness and greatness. without a school and job was the worst position i could be in last year. and with arise & build coming i didn't wanna be a helpless onlooker... even going back to DBS to get the measly $1450 sounded good to me. but really, our god moves beyond that. beyond what i never imagined.
being rejected by ibm wasn't a very good feeling. or rather, any rejection is never easy. and the last thing i wanted at that time was to face another rejection; esp since ibm did afterall reject me once. but somehow in some desperate attempt to rectify the hopeless situation i was in, i braved the embarrassment etc i would face and did everything. yet within 24 hours my miracle came! i had asked for a job at ibm singapore, any position would be fine... doesn't have to be something i enjoyed doing... just as long i was being paid. and ya know what?! the very position i wanted a year ago (and yet was rejected): a marketing position with the IBM ASEAN team was opened, FOR ME! they wanted me as i was an intern there before, together with the recommendation of my ex-manager i was up for the interview!
not only did i get something i asked for, i was blessed with something beyond that! definitely my pay was higher than my other school-mates- more than any other salary i had before! how miraculous is that?! an open heaven with a great provision from my daddy god! and not into any-oh-how place, it was the very place i had asked for a year ago! somewhere that i had wanted to go all along!!! that's the empowerment i got from god from last year's arise & build... and i only got to know after i left the job- that they were seeking for a degree holder to fill that position, and that i didn't even meet the basic requirement. but yet was chosen! amen! what tremendous favour!
though times in ibm were never easy, i think it has helped hone my take on many perspectives of life. that there is power in confession, everything lies within you. that it is possible to achieve what you set your mind out to do; nothing is impossible with him. getting tired and bogged down is easy, but picking yourself up requires great strength. something that would require god's strength in your life. that it's only in the secular that your strengths, your weaknesses, your life's purpose is revealed. the secular holds much moulding than we imagine, and by his grace that we be kept in this moudling. change is never easy, it always creates great struggles within us.
every person i see really moves me, with their hearts full of wanting, of willingness to sow. esp the children and elderly folks. so let his river flow, thru our combined sacrifices, into this country. and as He moves, we ourselves will be moved into a new area... little christ!: bring christ into every social order of the marketplace! nothing is without its challenges!
be a channel of blessing.
see you guys on the other side.
Her
estelle, or more famously known as stelle
LSE undergraduate
the date is 8 July 1984
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Moolahs!
Travel Destinations
Gold Coast, once more baby!
Melbourne, my dearie home.
The United States :D
Taiwan, ShoppinG!
Sydney, the sights and SEAfood.
Japan, the hot springs!
Adelaide, I miss my peeps!
Switzerland, shopping part II & more cheese :)